Ok. so this is my last week being here in Raleigh, this is the only place i have ever lived and now i'm going to leave for 3 months CRAZY!! well if any one wants to hang out this weekend or this week Call me!!! and if you want to be updated on my trip whill i'm gone then e-mail me and you can be put on my list of people!!

This is Goodbye

Your name rings in my head over and over again,

it’s the same ring from the phone that never rings anymore,

it’s the anthem of the time when things use to go a little like this,

one step toward the truth,

the truth that I cannot believe,

the truths that hold me back from reality,

Time and time again I would just site and think about how great you are,

how lucky I may be to take your hand in ming and led you on,

But time as come and time as gone,

and now this time as come to an end,

and you can’t see me any more through those eyes of yours,

you have made your mind,

and there is no turning it around, if I could I don’t know if I would,

The pain of losing you is to much, losing you as friend and so much more.

So with this last breath of sanity,

I will vowel to ever see you as I once knew you to be,

if our paths ever happen to meet I want you to know,

that the place you left in my heart well never fully heal,

The Goodbye that "has" to be, comes neither from me nor from you,

But the end to it all well never be me!              1/8-7/9 2005

"Deceitful thinking"

Thoughts of come, and thoughts of gone, some I thought some I didn’t. Were they come from I do not know. To try and find the way they came, could be the end of me, like a soldier in a fight for the life he must not take, we must not give in, neither to the enemy or the foe, but the fight is neither on the land or in sea its in the place that only words and thoughts can go, its in the mind of you and I. Tho are minds can not see past the here and now, if we could we would see that the sides are only one sided. And battle that we still wadge is won.